Monday, May 2, 2011
The Good....actually, just the Bad and the Ugly
Why do I not remember when I'm eating "bad" food, how bad I will feel about it later? Ugh...Thursday through Sunday were 4 bad days. I was very depressed when I weighed in today, and was 210.5. Even though I was sick last week, so "technically" I probably only gained 2 pounds, but the scale says I am up 4. Wow. We got our family pictures taken yesterday for our church directory, and it was such a wakeup call. I looked at them afterwards, and wanted to cry. There is no reason for me to be fat, besides me not having self control. Plain and simple. I need to just buckle down, grow up, and just lose this weight. I refuse to be fat when we take our family vacation to Florida in November. I don't want to look back at every picture with my kids at Disney World, and not see the fun times, but only see myself looking huge. I WILL feel better about myself 6 months from now. I need all of your help though to keep me on track. I am going to start doing the 30 day shred again tomorrow...I won't be able to do it every day, but I am going to try to do it as often as possible. I am done for tonight. Pray for me as I continue this long, long journey!