Friday, October 19, 2012

At my rope's end....

Well, here I am...yet again. I'm sure no one is here anymore, and honestly it doesn't matter. I need to be back here, writing as often as I can, so I can be accountable, even if it is just to myself. I've been up, down, up, down, all around, lol for the past few months. I've been down to 194 and up to 200. It's sickening really. I've just had a hard time lately getting serious. I wish I could tell you why, but I don't know! Part of it is probably that we are hoping to get pregnant soon, and I have had the "I'm going to get pregnant and fat anyways so why should I even try" syndrome. Again, I know it's wrong, but it's the truth! The last thing I need to do is get FATTER before I even get pregnant! The other issue has been that I haven't been able to go to my workout classes in the past month or so. It started when my son started waking up very early, so I couldn't leave, then hunting season started, so my husband isn't home now in the morning. I need to find time to work out, but honestly, it seems impossible with three kids, housework, laundry, homeschooling, etc. The only time I really have is when the kids go to bed, but in all honesty, I'm just so exhausted by that point, the last thing I want to do is to "party" with Jillian Michaels! :-)
   As scared as I am to do it, I am going to weigh myself tomorrow, and post it. I did go away with my BFF last weekend to Orlando, so I'm coming off a BAD week of eating! I'm probably going to be somewhere around 200, give or take a few. I am going to try to post as much as I can, in the midst of my crazy life, even if I am the only one that reads it. If anyone is still here, sorry for being so "on again and off again" all the time. Still trying though....not giving up yet!