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Jess

At my rope's end....

Well, here I am...yet again. I'm sure no one is here anymore, and honestly it doesn't matter. I need to be back here, writing as often as I can, so I can be accountable, even if it is just to myself. I've been up, down, up, down, all around, lol for the past few months. I've been down to 194 and up to 200. It's sickening really. I've just had a hard time lately getting serious. I wish I could tell you why, but I don't know! Part of it is probably that we are hoping to get pregnant soon, and I have had the "I'm going to get pregnant and fat anyways so why should I even try" syndrome. Again, I know it's wrong, but it's the truth! The last thing I need to do is get FATTER before I even get pregnant! The other issue has been that I haven't been able to go to my workout classes in the past month or so. It started when my son started waking up very early, so I couldn't leave, then hunting season started, so my husband isn't home now in the morning. I need to find time to work out, but honestly, it seems impossible with three kids, housework, laundry, homeschooling, etc. The only time I really have is when the kids go to bed, but in all honesty, I'm just so exhausted by that point, the last thing I want to do is to "party" with Jillian Michaels! :-)
   As scared as I am to do it, I am going to weigh myself tomorrow, and post it. I did go away with my BFF last weekend to Orlando, so I'm coming off a BAD week of eating! I'm probably going to be somewhere around 200, give or take a few. I am going to try to post as much as I can, in the midst of my crazy life, even if I am the only one that reads it. If anyone is still here, sorry for being so "on again and off again" all the time. Still trying though....not giving up yet!

I'm still here!

Sorry I have been MIA for almost a week. After my son finally got better, I ended up getting sick over the weekend. It's always something, isn't it? So basically I started "fresh" again on Monday. I decided to take a 60 challenge ( that I made up myself! :-) to not have white sugar or white flour for 60 days. NO cheating allowed. Not even for my son's birthday party. Obviously I'm allowed to do whatever I want since I'm the only one doing it, lol, but I am going to be strict with myself. I know I CAN do it, it's just a matter of me DOING it! Make sense? I joined a exercise class with my friend that is at 6:00am  4 days a week. I am NOT a morning person, but I think this is what I need to do in order to get a workout in each day. It is just not happening any other time, and I know it will be even harder once school starts. Now the key is just to make myself go to bed early every night! :-)
  Just so you know, I weighed myself Monday morning, and was back to 196.5. Believe it or not, I wasn't too heartbroken. After 10 days of not tracking, I just gained back what I lost the week before. Ha...sounds funny, but I guess it could have been worse. I don't know when I will log my next WI. Not sure if I want to keep it on Saturdays, or start doing it again on Mondays. Maybe it will depend on what I weigh on Saturday, to see if I want an extra 2 days to lose before telling you guys! :-) Either way, we will talk again soon! :-)

I've fallen down and I can't get up!

It has been a rough, and I mean ROUGH past 5 days. Saturday started with my son getting a fever, and he has been sick ever since. High fever, cranky and attached to my hip for 5 days. If that was not bad enough, I had to work Monday-Thursday this week, from 9am to 6pm at my dad's store. I brought my son because he couldn't be without me, but it just upped the stress by 100! I don't diet well under stress. I know it is not an excuse, but it is the truth. I didn't have time each morning to pack food as I was running out of the house with a sick kid, and all of his stuff for the day, so I ate whatever everyone else did at work. I feel so fat to be completely honest. I really need to shake it off and start again tomorrow. I still have one more day at work this week, so I need to figure out what to bring for lunch and dinner tomorrow. Maybe I should just get Subway on the way. What I need to do is just commit to 1 full week of taking pictures of EVERYTHING and tracking EVERY point. I am a person of habit, so if I can get a good solid week of doing perfect in, I will tend to stick to it out of just momentum. It's just been rough this past week, and I know I will be up a couple on Saturday. Trying not to let it get me down too much, because if I do, and give up, I will be 200 again before I know it. Just trying to get back up and get back on track...

WI day and terrible eating

Well let's start with the ugly. BAD eating day. Luckily it was the first day of the week, so I had 35 flex points, but it was a rough one. My son has a high fever so I spent all day home laying around with him, bored, and boredom brings on eating. I didn't have 1 majorly bad thing, but just snacked all day long. Sigh...now to just try to get it under control before tomorrow so it doesn't turn into 2 days of being bad! :-(

Good news now! I weighed in at 194 today, which was a 2.5 pound loss this week! I was VERY happy with that, as you can imagine! The lowest I have gotten in the past 2 years is 193.5, so if I can even lose 1 pound this coming week, I would be happy! If I continue to eat like today, I can PROMISE you it won't happen though!

Like I said, it was a rough day all around here today with a sick toddler, so no pictures. If you haven't figured it out yet, I'm not very dependable with pictures! I will get better eventually...I hope! My mind is just about 1,000 other places during the day with 3 kids and everything else I have going on, that I just forget to do it! :-)

Starting weight - 7/14 - 196.5
This week    -     7/21 - 194.0
This week's loss - 2.5
Total loss - 2.5


Tomorrow we are having company and making homemade pizzas for lunch. I would like to say that I will do great and stay within my points tomorrow, but I know myself better than that! I will try my best though! Have a great Sunday!

Day of cravings...ugh

It was a rough day today. Let's put it this way...it could have been way worse. It started off fine and normal, but then I decided to make these "healthy" white bean brownies. They are healthy, except for the chocolate chips. Normally, this would have been fine for me...I would have had 1 or maybe 2 and been done. Welllllllll apparently at this time of month, I can't control myself. I ate WAY yonder too many of them throughout the day. Frustrating, because tomorrow is WI, but it is what it is. My daughters and their friends made chocolate chip cookies, and I didn't touch them, so I'm proud about that. I'm sure the WI won't be good anyway because of the time of month, but I will be fine with whatever it is. I did great this week, except for today, so I'm proud of myself! So sorry about no pictures again...it was a crazy day of baking, cooking, cleaning and having 2 extra kids here. I will try my BEST to do it tomorrow! Hope you all have a great weekend!

Long day....zzzzz.....

I didn't take pictures of everything today, so I'm just going to not bother posting the couple I did take! I was at work from 9am till 8:30, came home and put the kids in bed and finally am relaxing for the first time. I did good today, except for a half of a cookie and a kiddie size fruity drink that my kids didn't want to finish. Days like this are really hard for me, because I am at work with candy bars, Chili's that they ordered today, cookies, etc. For dinner I had 1 piece of chicken from Chili's and 3 bites of mashed potatoes. I'm not sure of the points values, but I don't think it was that bad, and I know for sure I could have done MUCH worse! :-) I am soooo hungry right now, but I made myself get right in bed, far from the kitchen, so I won't eat anything else. Somedays that is what I have to do just to restrain myself! HA!

Sorry, I feel like this post is so random and jumbled! I've been on the computer all day, taking care of customers online, on the phone, and in a store, and my brain is fried! Promise it will be better tomorrow! :-) ( and I will have pictures! )